355; tired of tears

I'm so sick of myself. so so so sick of putting on a facade of neatness. I either cry or get angry half the time. I'm just so fucking emotional i get sick of myself. The tears just come and go like a free bird yknow. On the other hand, i have been losing weight like nobody's business too. It urgs me to know that my daily expenses havent been improving , it's barely even survivable now. I dont have the capital to purchase new bottoms because the current ones that don't fit me anymore. Then i have to put up my with child-like mum at home, and i have my lovely boyfriend whom i anger him unknowingly half the time, UTs approaching, so much obstacles surfacing in my life i don't even know how to deal with them anymore...

354; "He might be a burden, but it'll be worthwhile."

There are just some things that has disappeared and can never be returned can they? Many a times i so badly want to tweet about my short comings in life and mostly about my relationship problems.Then again, I don't want my boyfriend to think that i'm attention seeking yknow. I know he's my boyfriend, i can say whatever i want to him and obviously get the attention i want from him, but sometimes i just feel like an absolute loser.