It's been a while since I turned on the computer. I was trying to instill discipline in myself. And yes, I can proudly say that I can live life without the computer now. I totally abandoned Facebook and tweet less now. My Social activities are really depleting like never before, and that's sad. ):
So, I got back my Prelims 1 results last week. It wasn't fantastic. In fact, with those results, it can bring me to nowhere. I'm partially drowned in misery. I'm sick and tired of the same routine everyday. After I return from school, (I'll take naps if i'm reaaaaalllly exhausted), I just study and study. My life revolves around studying now. Memorising stuff that I might just forget at the end of the week. For the fact that all my friends are doing so well, at least, much better than me, I get so pressurized all the time. And sometimes, my mum just likes to add on to my depression which makes frustration at its maximum.
For now, I just need to continue persevering on and finish the race for God. At the end of the day, it'll be me who benefits all these. It's just 23 days to Prelims 2. I'll have to strive to at least pass Everything, and then steadily conquering O Levels. I will not live in regrets.
On the other hand, I've been getting weird dreams. Things that I never really thought about but all of it appeared while I was sleeping. I dreamt of the exhilaration and joy plastered on my face when I receive my O level results. I dreamt of what crazy things my friends and I would do everyday. And even, you. Thrice to be exact.
